Questioning

29Jul09

I love the news. Everyday I read the local paper on lunch at work from start to finish (except for that pesky sports section), then I read my home town paper on-line, and most of the time I listen to news talk radio in the car. I wasn’t always so interested in what was going on around me, but it became a sort of obsession after 9/11.

That day I drove my car to school, likely singing along to ‘The Ataris’ just as I would have every day previous. When I got to class my professor told everyone that the Twin Towers had been hit by terrorists.

I thought he was joking.

Looking back, I should have known he wasn’t. He never said anything funny.

Ever since then I’ve had a compulsion to know what’s going on in the world. I’ll read pretty much anything (save for the aforementioned sports), and sometimes I come across things that are just, well, bizarre. Yesterday I heard about one of those things.

The article is here. Just a warning – it is graphic, so not for those with a weak stomach. I heard just the tail end of the story on news talk, and then I came home and checked on-line.

I don’t want to belittle the seriousness of the crime in any way, or of it’s affect on those involved, but hearing about a mother like the one in the article made me ask “why me?” Why can’t I have kids, and this woman can? It doesn’t make any sense. Most days I try not to question the cards I’ve been dealt, but after yesterday all I have are questions.