Home, Sweet Home

12Aug09

I have never truely appreciated the quiet tranquility of my home until this week.

I survived family vacation, and more surprising, so did my dogs and my brothers kids. Yes, Daisy may have barked every time one of the kids started to run/yell/walk  to the point where the child(ren) started to cry, but the kids left with all their appendages, so I’ll call it a good week.

I learned that I want one, maybe two kids, but I don’t think I could handle any more, whew! I have a new found respect for parents of large families. How do the Duggar’s do it?

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Vacation

02Aug09

Today we’re for a week of lake-side lounging, sun tanning, and chasing after four kids and two dogs. We’re going on vacation with my family, and there are ten of us sharing one house. You may be thinking that we’re nuts, but we’ve done it successfully twice before. Although – there were only two or three kids previously, and no dogs, so it should prove interesting. Did I mention the kids are scared of the dogs?

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Questioning

29Jul09

I love the news. Everyday I read the local paper on lunch at work from start to finish (except for that pesky sports section), then I read my home town paper on-line, and most of the time I listen to news talk radio in the car. I wasn’t always so interested in what was going on around me, but it became a sort of obsession after 9/11.

That day I drove my car to school, likely singing along to ‘The Ataris’ just as I would have every day previous. When I got to class my professor told everyone that the Twin Towers had been hit by terrorists.

I thought he was joking.

Looking back, I should have known he wasn’t. He never said anything funny.

Ever since then I’ve had a compulsion to know what’s going on in the world. I’ll read pretty much anything (save for the aforementioned sports), and sometimes I come across things that are just, well, bizarre. Yesterday I heard about one of those things.

The article is here. Just a warning – it is graphic, so not for those with a weak stomach. I heard just the tail end of the story on news talk, and then I came home and checked on-line.

I don’t want to belittle the seriousness of the crime in any way, or of it’s affect on those involved, but hearing about a mother like the one in the article made me ask “why me?” Why can’t I have kids, and this woman can? It doesn’t make any sense. Most days I try not to question the cards I’ve been dealt, but after yesterday all I have are questions.

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Puppy Love

27Jul09

A week ago yesterday we added a new member to our little family. We already had a little dog named Daisy, and now we have a second little dog named Lucy.

Lucy and Daisy are polar opposites. Daisy is a hyperactive fur ball of energy who loves to play with her toys and run in full speed circles on the carpet. Lucy, on the other hand, is the perfect lap dog. She’s totally mellow, and would rather curl up in someone’s lap than play fetch.

It’s been an interesting week watching them interact. Daisy doesn’t appreciate it when I give Lucy too much attention, and by too much attention I mean daring to glance in Lucy’s direction. Also, Daisy must know what Lucy is doing AT ALL TIMES. So, if Lucy is nicely sleeping in her bed, Daisy has to go over and check on her. Daisy must have some sort of internal clock because every ten minutes she goes over and looks at Lucy, then smells her, and then walks away. Sometimes there is doggy banter, whereby one dog goes over to the other and makes strange whimpering noises, and the other dog responds with even stranger whimpering noises. I’m sure they are saying things like “if you touch my toys I will take you down,”  or “the toilet bowl water is mine, stay out”.

The strange thing is how easily Lucy fit in to our hearts.  Perhaps it’s not strange at all, but she has quickly nudged her way in, not unlike the way she nudges her head into my armpit in the morning, and now I can’t imagine not having her.  Daisy, however,  is probably wistfully remembering her last days of single puppy-hood.

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A Fresh Start

25Jul09

I’ve been wondering what to do with this blog for a while. It’s not what I wanted it to be, so I decided to do what we can never do in real life: start over.

Yes, this is a blog about my journey through infertility, but I want it to be about so much more than that, because I am more than just an infertile woman.

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